Friday, November 14, 2008

Worry.

As I write this, a very important meeting is going on in Virginia concerning our future here in Afghanistan. Although I've known that this meeting was coming, I didn't want to say anything about it.  Mainly because all of us here really want to stay.  And we're all very uncertain whether we will be able to or not.  But for some reason, I felt that saying that we might leave Kabul would make it feel more real. . . and it does.

I have to admit that I am nervous about finding out the verdict.  And I think that it's ok to be a little bit nervous.  But at the same time, life is full of uncertainty (I feel like I'm learning a lot about uncertainty these days!).  And in a sense, we always live in the uncertain no matter how "secure" our lives are.  Bottom line, despite my desire to stay here in Kabul, despite the uncertainties that the future holds, and despite this feeling that I have that my life is in constant change. . . I'm not going to worry.

Fittingly, our Book Group studied Matthew 6:25-34 yesterday.  For a group of people that live in a place in constant flux, it was a great reminder to all of us not to worry about tomorrow.  Although we hope and pray that we will be able to stay here in Kabul, we're not going to worry while we wait for the verdict.  Tomorrow will worry about itself.

3 comments:

Intrepidity said...

Oh Jules, uncertainty is so hard! I'm at the edge of my sit waiting for news, while sending you guys cyber hugs.

Kelly said...

Thinking and praying about you guys. Hope you get to stay!!

C said...

I'll be praying for all of you and the situation.